Lost in the dark: march her transformational journey
At the age of 24, I met Karo-Lynn Reyes through a friend who had just started coaching with her. At that time, I was struggling on multiple levels — physically, emotionally, and spiritually. Despite years of therapy and coaching, nothing provided sustainable results. No therapist or coach had ever reached the depth of my soul, leaving me in desperate need of professional help.
Physical struggles: unexplained symptoms and chronic discomfort
I suffered from severe premenstrual syndrome (PMS) symptoms. My periods were so painful that I would almost pass out from intense cramps. Additionally, my body reacted strongly to many foods. For example, eating eggs caused me to mentally zone out so intensely that it felt like I was on a bad drug trip. People around me noticed these strange reactions — my ability to follow conversations disappeared, and I experienced severe abdominal pain. Within minutes of eating, I became so bloated that I looked at least five kilos heavier. There was no logical explanation.
Emotional instability: a constant rollercoaster
Emotionally, I felt unbalanced and unsteady. My moods fluctuated dramatically throughout the day — without warning and without control. I had no grip on my emotional nature, making every morning an unpredictable experience. My emotions could shift within seconds, leaving me feeling completely out of control.
I struggled to build healthy relationships — both with others and with myself. Most of my friendships and romantic relationships were toxic. I lacked boundaries and a strong sense of self, attracting people who mirrored my emotional instability. This led to destructive cycles of emotional abuse — both as a victim and a perpetrator. The consequences of these toxic patterns were devastating.
ADHD chaos: a life without structure
My life lacked structure and focus. I exhibited severe ADHD-related symptoms, making it nearly impossible to stay organized. My daily life was chaotic and stressful:
- I constantly missed trains and buses.
- I arrived late to work and important meetings nine out of ten times.
- I lost keys and credit cards regularly.
- My attempts to organize myself always ended in failure.
This wasn’t due to laziness or unwillingness — I truly wanted to create order in my life, but my mind was a mess. Even minor stressors triggered extreme emotional reactions, which was ironic considering how much stress and disorder I created for myself.
My parents called me a “tornado” — I would enter a room with such intense, chaotic energy that it was overwhelming for others. In my frantic search for personal belongings, I would leave behind a total mess, only to rush out the door without finding what I needed.
Spiritual disconnect: feeling ungrounded and disconnected
On a spiritual level, I felt completely lost. Every day, I experienced a profound sense of disconnection from my own body — like I was floating above myself. This sensation was deeply unsettling. Even on hot summer days, my hands, toes, and lower legs felt freezing cold, as if life energy wasn’t reaching those parts of my body. It was a strange and frustrating experience that left me feeling more disconnected than ever.
Severe addictions: A life lost in darkness
For years, I suffered from severe addictions. Beneath it all, I was deeply depressed. My struggles included alcohol addiction, substance abuse (both hard and soft drugs), and compulsive sexual behavior. From the age of 14, I lived from high to high, unable to face reality without an escape. My daily existence revolved around intoxication — drugs at school during the week, passing out in nightclubs on the weekends. Getting high consumed my thoughts 24/7 — I fell asleep thinking about it and woke up craving it.
I remember lying to my manager’s face, pretending to be sick just so I could rush home — to take more hard drugs and engage in destructive sexual behavior. My addictions were not just habits; they completely controlled my actions, emotions, relationships, and performance in life. I had built my entire existence around them, while keeping it all a deep, dark secret.
Trapped in a vicious cycle of addiction
Since the age of 14, I had been caught in a self-destructive cycle. No matter how many times I tried to break free, one addiction would replace another. It felt like an endless loop, leaving me desperate, unworthy, and utterly lost. My addictions led me down an extremely dark path, where I made choices that betrayed my true essence.
At my core, I had always been a sensitive, kind, and modest person. But addiction had turned me into someone I didn’t recognize — self-centered, attention-seeking, sexually reckless, and toxic. I deeply harmed and traumatized myself, violated my own boundaries, and allowed others to do the same.
The battle with eating disorders and body dysmorphia
Alongside my addictions, I also suffered from severe eating disorders. These began around the age of 13, when puberty set in. At school, it was considered “uncool” for girls to develop feminine shapes. This societal pressure triggered obsessive thoughts about my weight, diet, and appearance. I became trapped in body dysmorphia, unable to see myself clearly, constantly feeling inadequate and dissatisfied with my body.
A false identity: alcohol, drugs, and sex
The most dangerous part of my addiction was that I didn’t know who I was without alcohol, drugs, and sex. Over the years, I crafted an identity — a young, “fun,” “sexy” party girl who lived for the thrill of intoxication and wild experiences. This image gave me a false sense of external validation and a temporary feeling of existence.
I dressed for attention, intentionally inviting over-sexualized reactions. I surrounded myself with like-minded people, further distorting my frame of reference. My life became a spiral of sex, drugs, and emotional emptiness. I was nothing more than a lost soul, desperately searching for light.
A hidden truth: the soul behind the mask
Deep inside, I always knew I was not this person. At heart, I was a deeply sensitive individual, with passions and interests that contradicted the destructive life I was living. Since childhood, I had been fascinated by spirituality, energy, astrology, and the mystical side of life. I loved personal development, writing, nature, creativity, and sociology — all things that carried a gentle, introspective energy, completely opposite to the chaotic and reckless persona I had adopted.
I was trapped in an identity crisis, feeling completely disconnected from my true self. But I was too far gone to find my way back alone. My lifestyle and choices were only pushing me further away from my authentic spirit.
I needed help to reconnect with my original energy. When I was finally ready for transformation, I found Karo-Lynn Reyes — and that’s where my journey toward healing truly began.
